yes il be quiting on guardian..im not going to work animore...im goin to please myself with other things that i should do...but working in guardian did help me to understand more in some culture of bisnes and also making new frens..n to learn new pharmacological agents..but too bad...i realli kant hold on..i noe i tried to compromise...but i kant..i already told my in charge that im resigning...but...well...its a personal problem..one thing ive to get rid of a new colleuge of mine..natra is her name...well..i mite not her much bt her..but i just wanna get off from an untrustworthy person...well..its okie...i did try to help cheryul n fatin to be together again..but its a waste...i realli dunno..i just wanna pray...hope everything is fine...well..im not angry with my hubby..i love him..he have the right to know everything..well..i love him so much.. but well..i realli...dun one to comment bt this matter anymore.. i want to lead a better life...i want a better future..a better salary..i want to realli save money..bekoz i want to take my degree and go haji before im 30...dats my wish..which im trying to do now..i must realli strict to myself in make sure that i realli save money..i want to bring my family go haji too..
ya allah..please don take my dad before i send him to haj...i realli love him...i want to take care of him like how he take care of me...i want him to know dat im the best daughter follow by sister..i love my mom too..but im in a favour of my dad...
n....bt my further studies of korse i want to be a nurse..i want to be a sister...a nurse manager...i hope i can do it..
well...watever obstacle in my life...i will endure..like i say..im realli sorie my dear..for scoldin u...i mean..i gt no intention...i reali dun like to scold..give me time..k bby....ill be like wat i am last time..e real shiela dat u noe....not the bad one...yess..i will gain all my trust to u...i realli love u...
yeah to day i was actually followed by 3 man...bangladesh..oh my god...its realli a sin...a bad situation that i kant control my fear..i duno y im scared.mabe is bekoz of his face who look like a rapist..yes i hide in the toilet...realli briong out my temper to my guy...bekoz he didnt pick up my kol..i hide in tkc...n luckily god answer my prayer..my hero is outside waiting for em..alamak...the worst thing i saw that man face to face...n..my guy didnt see when i told him his there... oh god...i want to self defence..but just not able too....
the end
9:40 AM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
oh my god!!my father...fall down on the toilet..so sad im not there to help him...but he asked me to massage his buttock....funny him!!!
i meet my ayg...i mis him so much....i love u!!!
n.....we have great fun....hehe
n....i love my mom dad n sis!!! n i left one more week of attachment...
3:38 AM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
TODAY im at ward 32 b kkh...so cute of the babies..u make my life feel not bored at all...well...i ate macdonalds for lunch...talking to my ayg on the fone...hehe...cute...him..
btw today i talk to my fren...she told me about her story with her frens..she cried...im so sorry... i mean..u have to be strong..if ur friends are those nice one..they will accept u for who u r...not for ur nerdies or what..wel..ur sweet at ur own heart...not like them..so hypocrites..looks nice in front..but damn bullshit...i hate ppl like this..so what they got good gpa or good remarks if their life is still full of jerkys in their heart...bless them...
i dun give a fucking damn shit on these ppl..im okie....as long im happy...well..they have foul mouth in the beginning and the end too...haha..thats where ppl will one by one..prevent themselves from standing beside u....jerkies!!!
7:43 PM
Sunday, March 09, 2008
well...today im so tired..bekoz i realli not enuf of rest...how...btw...tomorrow will be my attachment at kkh...so tired...i hate paediatrics and got to do with pregnancy...not challenging enuf...
i was so touched my dad cooked for me telor dada today... n....i went to work..n i met natra...n cheryl n fatin...natra...is a very nice lady..well..fatin likes her too...n.....we share lots of story...n guess wat..wat a small work..she noe my ayg...well...she hate that women name diana 2...eeeee....what a bitch...
but today..im really in pain..my head..is so pain..i nid to relax by watching hidayah...sumtink funny on youtube...i watch david copperfield too...sorie ayg..i didnt talk to u....im sorie i kant accompany u to see doctor..im in pain..sorie ayg..but i love you..
6:04 AM
Saturday, March 08, 2008
dats me
i dun think he sees this pic before
below he is so cute...
im actually sad...i know its been for so long ive did not went to this blog...im so tired..and too bz chatting with my man...
well...i got lots of things to share...i miss my bf so much...his been a great boyfriend...i love him to the max..well..he realli makes me close to him...i really feel his love..and i enjoy every moment of my breath with him...he is so cool..whenever i fite with him..he try his best to give me the courage and settle things on that day...i love the way he compromised himself with everythings.
but he always complained that he is sick..how can this be...haiyoo...is not that im flattering but i need the time to uphold myself bekoz i myself sick..well..ill alwyas pray that he will be fine...his the best....
i miss everyone in skool...
but i realli miss the kids in darul ma'wa...
its been 4 month i didnt visit them..how??
i actually cried everytime i meet them..
i cant hold my tears...bekoz they really opens my heart making me think that life is colourful whether they have no parents..but some who have parents...haiss...i think i du nt want to tok about it...im so sad...
my fren...in my work place...dear f....she have been so supportuve not like the other want..think about herself...she told me she broke up with his bf...haiyo..but she is being strong to accept him again and that guy is tying to change for the sake of thier love..but she nid to be a lil bit pampered to solve this trial...hehe..well woman we always stand for rights...we didnt wanna be a guys slave..damn them..but...ill pray for ur happiness pal..
ohya...last 2 weeks saturday..my sister face and achievement was brought up in the news...hehe..im so proud of her...really proud..but how can she say that im her inspiration..im not..its u urself adek...n im not that soft like what u think...
well..i gain 2 kg..thanks for my syg...alwyas bring me eat at kfc...hais u...
i went out with my sweety pie.....and i had a cheeky moment with him...so cute..that i kant describe..haaha....
well..forgot to show u..the pic that he went family outing with me and my family..n we at seoul garden...
well..
happy 3 months anniversary syg...i love you..n i love my family too!!!!
7:23 PM
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
alrite...im happy...everything is fine...im so happy.. now i know who is in wrong...that woman lah..lying on me saying that she was pregnant..what the fuck...haiz..my guy is still the best...no fuck for that woman for saying the truth..haha...thanks a lot for this trial..im actually so exhausted that i am tired to type the whole story..whatever it is i love my man...he makes me feel strong
7:16 PM
Monday, December 17, 2007
i received a call from a woman..and this woman claimed that she is a-m future to be fiancee...n i hate it...i believed her too much...maybe bekoz she is a woman.. but of koz i will think back n actually this woman is for real..if his not that a-m girl...how she get my number...of koz..they have met latest yesterday or what...
damn him...i believe and trust him that fast..but i have to fight for my rights... how can i put myself on hold..and making others fooling on me..before they fool me out..i rather them get fooled by me...haiz...i dun understand..if not for my fast act...i rather go back to arman...or taufik...but it is too late.. maybe there is an end to the beginning...or maybe ive to hear things out on am side...yess that is right...but how can i face this.. i mean...who should i believe...i do love him...but is he playing on me..wow,,this is my first time experience this kind of situation..i try k... ill be the gilli pig...ill try to solve things out..im not angry..bekos....this is an obstacles.. this is a challenge.. n..ive to take up this challenge from god...
love is blind. but is can only be feel by our heart to see...
One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:- that word is love. Im OnlY that shiela Im bUbblY.. iM SwEETTY.. CariNg IS me.. Helpful Is me.. Lame is ME.. bUT Im okie... Sheila here... Im just a normal person.. Passion..lovely..open minded...is all i am... Now.. n Foreva!!! Now in Adiratna(Dikir Barat) Tarian Melayu in Ngee ann Poly(Expiditari) Tarian melayu in Bukit Panjang CC Very active in community work..in a youth club society.. i love writing i love to read poetry... i LOve Seni.. Im happy... No one Can Be like Me!!! I love... things that is hot n cool... Happenning sensation... Surprise.. I dun like to give a damn on u... Im a friendly environmental person... Dun judge me wrong... Im not horny for u Bustard... N im A kind who hate Galz or Guys who r moTherfucker.. Skooling in Ngee Ann poly...Taking Health Science Course...Love my Chikopaek Gals... Im Neutral.. U good to me.. Im good to you.. u bad To me.. But i wont harm u... Dats it! Be my Fren yeah!!!
why i am i?
• I love Bikes ESpicially sports Motorbikez..Wait Next Year Than I get My lICense..singing
• dancing
• jogging
• talking
• chatting
• martial arts(silat)
• my favorite also is TO eat N eAT WiTH all i CAN!!!iS i gO tO PeTiR rOAD fOOD place AT bLk 213- i WIll EaT ttHe WesTerN fOOd esPeCiaLLy BuRgER..iF i Go To SiM meGAbYtES
• I wiLL EaT thE cHikEn SpaGheTtI wIth bLACk PePeR sTeaK..iF i Go To sWEnSenS-Ill eAt THe ChIcKeN BaKe RiCe..If I gO tO eAcH-A-Cup..I wILL oRdER iCe BlEnDed ChOcOlAtE WIthOUt PeaRl...n iF I gO tO SGh kopItIAM-i wIll eAt THe MeAtBALLs Mee-n Of CouRsE I lIKe My Mee soTO!!!! bUt I jUSt LikE dOinG aERoBikS N hiP hOP DaNcIng...BuT tO bAd..IM fAt NOw...so eXerCiSe Is My HobbY...
• raggae
• hip hop
• malay traditional song
• dangdut
• techno and more
• anithing -cutegal-
happygolucky, kind-hearted, emotional
cheerful, understanding.. =)
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dats me
i dun think he sees this pic before
